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Sunday, October 29, 2006 { 6:01 AM }

tomorrow is the big day. the continuation of my route to As..hahaas. ok. that's just a hope. people live on hope and work for dreams right? today is sunday. my favourite day of the week:] i love sundays! cuz it's slack day..arh! something is really bugging me. i keep on thinking about it..think think think..dont know what to do. maybe i'll get something out of tomorrow. i want a new handphone, a new haircut. hahaas. i'm just too demanding. but i'm happy. with a tinge of worried and afraid. do you believe in destiny? i do lehs..dont know why i'll ask this stupid question. seriously i'm very bored. i know i shouldnt be bored..but i cant help it you know? okies..shall make go use of time later on..

Friday, October 27, 2006 { 6:21 AM }

today was elearning day! woopie~ everyone stayed at home and do elearning. but we went out. met at somerset mrt station at about 11, but i met celeste first then took bus 7 to thr mrt station. we were somehow the first to reach there, followed by sy. then we went on to cine to buy the tickets first and then waited for the others. at about 11 plus, we went to pasta to eat first. me and bi shared a pizza and as usual, mao keeps eyeing simin's food. haiyoh..hahaas. then we went archade. i love that house to dead game. but it's vv tiring and scary. heheex..after playing, there was still like half an hour or so, so we sat outside and talked. after that we went to buy popcorn and went into the theatre. they all arh..thought it was like scary, but it's so not scary. but it was kinda boring..to me. but the death god was cute. someone's brother..hahaas. monday is like the chinese exams le..the only thing i'm looking forward is seeing that someone..shall make sure i at least catch a glimpse of ahem ahem..hahaas..lalala~ i'm so happy:]

Wednesday, October 25, 2006 { 7:50 AM }

i having a bad time here. my tummy..it hurts. but pain is good..it keeps you alive. that was what will or willy said. hahaas. today was such a fun day..being "retranched" and stuffs. today had many free periods, as usual. then spend most of the time examining our class photos. then we came out with nicknames for many people. and i love them:] wonder what people will give me..maybe something like "freako" or "hairy" or er..let me think.."blackie" or "shorty" what mao always call me-.-" but our nicknames are nice..i swear. if i had them..i'll be like wow! hahaas. jkjk. we went around calling those people their nickmanes. cool names! but the last few periods were boring. they all went to play chinese chess. orh..last two years our class also love chinese chess. now also the same situation. what worse things can happen? ok..sorry for saying that chess lovers..after that we had sec 3 resiliance camp briefing. like so boring..wonder how many people will actually turn up on that day man. and then they told us what to bring..the attire and stuffs. but it's like so little. are you sure? but there's this one day pulau ubin trip. not even one day ok..half a day only lar. sianz. and tomorrow is holiday! nono..elearning. gotta do elearning..

Friday, October 20, 2006 { 8:18 PM }

i'm tired. will anyone give me a rest? yesterday had np..but i didnt go. and i found out they gave out ssgt ranks and as usual, i didnt get mine. seriously, i think some people deserve more than some other people. and of course..that some people who deserve it is obviously not me..i cant be so bhb right? besides, i'm lousy i know. suddenly i dont feel like going for np anymore. i'm tired you know? i'm sick le..sec3 life is the most horrible one. still remember when i was in sec 1 and sec 2 and even before we took over, i would come every activity..because i feel it is my responsibility to come go for it. now..no longer. i dont understand why..i feel so suxy now..andthere's something i dont know how to say. all those qian1 yan2 wan4 yu3..all kept in my heart..i feel so sorry..yesterday went to pp library to borrow books. managed to borrow kite runner again. that book is nice.
i love poon sai cheung!!! ok. this person here is poon sai cheung. he's so nice..
seriousli i do hate this particular person. but i just didnt show it. i dislike people who love boasting. so what if you get good results? it just aint fair yea? boast boast and boast. just wait and see how we beat you..wahahahahas..

Thursday, October 19, 2006 { 5:38 AM }

today..got our lit results. glad i didnt fail. i could have gotten more if i had more time. cuz the unseen i wrote too short. only about half a page because i've got not enough time..boohoo. but there is something to celebrate about. lit is the one of the few subjects i've put in efforts to achieve a least a something. my efforts is being rewarded(: finally. i love krishna..lalala~i still love krishna. cuz that book is zhai! dont understand why can say it's boring..but at first when i started out with this book..it really was. today the debrief was scary. i thought i would fail all over again. you know..sometimes poeple dont get rewarded for their efforts? but it proved me wrong once again. if you put your heart and soul in it, you will succeed. maybe for the rest of the subject i didnt? hahaas..and so far..i've got one f9. haiz. stupid combine humans. and i hope pretty mrs ho wont add anymore componenets into the CA2..if not i'll just flunk by a bit. cuz i'm on the verge of failing. on thing is for sure though. my overall a maths failed. by i think 8 or so. maybe they'll call for all those failure to take a test and see if we have to drop or not..but i'll not drop. after practising..my results..
hcl:63.5
english:58.4
emaths:71.5
physics:55
chem:58
elit:65
amaths:42.5
comb human:36(hmmm..worst of all..)

there's one more..my o level music..omg. gonna fail damn badli..this is one subject i didnt put my heart and soul in..although i borrowed cds to listen, but i still didnt understand. the unseens were okay(cuz i guesses it correctly), but the composing and the skeleton score thingy and the score thingy i screwed. i think i played that piece before..heheex. but then..i'm so going to fail o level music.! but i dont want...

Wednesday, October 18, 2006 { 6:00 AM }

these few days of debriefs are killing me. i hate them..why cant we just do the papers without knowing the results..i dont want them! today's paper were all suxy. like the first paper was ss..and i failed horrible. like lalala~stupid isnt it. and geog. guess how much i got? 19. so overall, i failed combine humanities badly. and it seriously pulled my overall down. i'm on the verge of failing. and i dont want to fail! after that was physics. i finally passed, but its lousy though. i cant stand it. because after all these hard work, this is all i get. maybe the hardwork i put is in wrong chapters..i should put more emphasise on the back chapters..i should go knock my head and die. really felt like itsthe end of my life. there's no way out. the future looks bleak. i cant see that light..i borke down. finally. it isnt easy taking it in your own hands..all those sorrows. haiz..someone..save me please..show me that there's still hope. life isnt ending. i need someone to motivate me..get me going..haiz. hard work doesnt pay..but i think i'll work twice as hard..if not, thrice as hard, if not four times as hard..i want to succed..

Sunday, October 15, 2006 { 7:23 AM }

i was blog hopping, when i saw this quiz. feeling bored, i decided to do this..there's this quiz fanatic here, that's willing to do any quiz, cuz i'm seriously too bored!
1. what is your name?
theodora(:

2. how old are you?
15 years, 6 months and 7 days. from today..

3. what do you like to do most?
day dreaming, watch television(esp with chen jin hong), listening to music(all genres)

4. whats your ambition?
a psychologist(motivated by wan jiahe), or a teacher..

5. what are you doing now?
listening to music and surfin the net. plus doing this thingy.

6) what handphone do you want most badly?
sansung D820!!!!

7. who are your good friends?
the best four: simin, bi, yuqing, celeste. the rest of the people are my good friends!

8. who do you wish you were?
the person beside chen jin hong...but it's impossible. his in hk lehs..

9. do you like to dress yourself up?
quite, but no matter how i dress up, i still look kiddy.

10. what are your phobias?
my greatest fear..i guess a lot of people who know me will know. blood and pain. i'll just get soft when i see it..and may cry. and when i hear those slaughter description, i'll cry..

11. whats your last message and by whom?
sam, asking me what to bring tomorrow.

12. any guy you like?
ever since that day, no.

13. which are your favourite meals?
lunch. cuz i get to buy whatever i want.

14. where would you like to live at?
new zealand. near the green meadows..

15. what chicken parts do you like?
chicken wings..

16. whats your main ringtone?
"i believe" by fan4 yi4 cheng2. dont know if that's what it is called=p

17. what drinks you prefer?
milky. and sweet.

18. what do you wish you would do if you were in a fairytale?
prince. because the books always never describe how hard the princes' lifes are. but the lifes of the princesses are hard before the meeting with the prince.

19. what colour would you wish your hair would be?
the one i'm having now..but i want a strip of milky pruple hair at the fringe.

20. how tall are you?
it doesnt matter..as long as i'm tall at heart(:

21. where are you now?
home lor.

22. who would you wish you would be with now?
my friends, having a party?

23. do you like school?
yea..take away all those tests and exams.

24. have you ever been rejected?
i dont know.

25. are you impatient?
quite. most of the time, becuz i've got a fury temper..

26. how would you describe your anger?
when i get angry, i'll just keep quiet. becuz i'm a noisy and crappy fella, it's not very usual. and when people ask me if i'm anrgry with them, i'll answer with on word. very easy to see that i'm angry lar.

27. whats the last show you watched today?
my wife is 18.(in madraine)

28. what kind of movies do you prefer?
romantic and those that tell us the meaning of live.

29. whats your favourite thing you do in the cinema?
eating and watching the movie.

30. name 3 things you always have on yourself
earrings, necklace and hair? is this considered a thing?

31. how many kids would you want to have?
actually one, but then..becuz of somthing that happened, i want TWO. a boy and a girl.

32. do you have a stead?
nay.

33. do you wish you have one?
anything lor.

34. do you flirt?
dont know lehs.

35. what would you do if vending machine steals your money?
tell the auntie so that i'll get my drink.

36. favourite channel?
channel 55.

37. would you sacrifice for the person you love now and in the future?
of course. love makes the world go round you know?

38. do you know your neighbours?
okok lor.

39. if you were forced to get a tattoo what will it be?
a lil gingerbread man. that's me you know?

40.do you follow your horoscope?
yes. all the time.

41. do you trust people easily?
quite easily.

42.how much money do you have in the bank?
i'm bankrupt. do you want to give me some money?? heheex.

43. what are you looking forward to?
0804.

44. where would you think you will be in 20 years?
singapore lor..still got where.

45. what songs do you sing when you shower?
some songs i listen to lately

46. whats your favourite song?
chasing cars by snow patrol.

47.do you like your family?
yar.

48. how old is your phone?
about 2 years or so..

49. how old is your computer?
about 8 years..but then i just changed the cpu and the monitor..and the speaker. so it's like all changed. heheex.

50) any last words?
good luck to us, who will be taking our papers back tomorrow:]

{ 1:30 AM }

had the sec 4 graduation ceremony yesterday. although it's a saturday, we, the sec 3s had to go back to school to witness them passing out. i guess they want us to see how it's all done and so we can do it better the next year. the presentations were all very nice. as in they protray the class unity very well. wonder what we'll do next year. i think we should start collecting our photos now..wonder what my feelings will be. today early in the morning woke up to go to the temple. it's a sunday..a day for us to rest, yet, i've to wake up so early. i'ld rather to for swimming. but ok..because of my studies, i'm do everything i can. actually the waking up early part and the going there part is ok..what i dont like is the squeeziness. i know there isnt this word..yea. there's a lot of people there, and i've got to squeeze. i dont like squeezing and rushing for things..ok. but it's ok this year. not that bad..hahaas. i love sundays(: i can get some rest finally..tomorrow we'll be getting our papers back. oh mien..got to die..

Friday, October 13, 2006 { 7:19 AM }

i'm asked to do this quiz de. anyways i'm bored too..so no harm doing this right?
1.single, taken or crushing?
single(:

2.are you happy with your life now?
er..quite. if i get better results..that will be even better.

3.when you meet the right person do you fall in love fast?
well..actually, yes.

4.have you ever had your heartbroken?
not really. a mild one..

5.do you believe there are some circumstances where cheating love is acceptable?
yes..it depends.

6.would you take someone back if he cheats on you?
er..yes. it all depends.

7.have you talked about marriage to someone else before?
nope..this is weird.

8.do you want children?
yea i do..actually i want one, but because of somethings..i want two..a boy and a girl(:

9.would you consider adoption?
er..yea. if i cant have one, and my the other half wants one badly.

10.if someone likes you right now, what do you think is the best way to let you know his feelings?
hmm..do something romantic! hahaas..just tell me lor.

11.do you enjoy getting into relationships?
dont know.

12.be honest, what is the furtherest you and you ex did before?
for me to know, for you to find out(:

13.do you believe in love at first sight?
quite. love is a kind of attraction you know..

14.are you romantic?
i can be very..and also not at all..

15.do you believe you can change someone?
not really. it depends.

16.if you could be married somewhere, where would it be?
paris? the church in rome and then go down to paris and venice. wahaha..

17.do you eaily give up while fighting?
i sometimes will..most of the time i'll tell myself it's pointless..

18.do you have feelings for someone right now?
er..yes, a bit.

19.do you ever wished you had someone, but you messed it up?
yea. had that feeling before. if i had done this..this wouldnt happen..

20.have you broken a heart?
no..*looking around*

21.if one day your best friend falls in love with the boy you are deeply in love with, what would you do?
see what the guy wants. if he choose my friend, i'll wish them happiness and buy tubs of hagen daze and stay at home eat till i feel better.

22.are you missing someone now?
er..yea. a bit.

ok..i shant ask anyone to do. if anyone wants to do it, then just do lor..people who are as bored as me! hahaas..and hagen daze rox! i love hagen daze!

{ 6:29 AM }

today was actually a holiday for us because its a marking day! but then we had to go to school for chemistry lesson. wonder why mrs kee want to waste her holiday teaching after the holiday. today is the day she's suppose to mark afterall. the chem was boring and difficult. i couldnt understand a thing. actually i can..only a bit. we ended earlier today. actually she said it'll end at about 12, but it ended at about 11. so i went out with si min, sy and sharon. they wanted to go ps, but sy directed us onto the wrong bus, so we went to bugis first. me and si min wanted to buy present for some people and go shop for pencilboxes, so we went bugis and walk walk. we bought that person's present but there wasnt any nice pencilboxes, so went went to the mrt station and took a train down to ps. the first train we took from bugis to city hall was so crowed that sharon and sy and me and si min got separated. at city hall, sy and sharon alighted, then me and si min were still on the train, then we saw them outside, so we quickly went out. luckily the door havent close yet. then we got laughed at..because we dont know where to get out): the first thing we did when we reached ps was find for a kfc because sy wanted to eat the cheesyto and i was hungry. tried the cheesy popcorn shake..and chees fries. very nice lor..and it reminds me of the yesterday "that's so raven" show..the parmezzon cheese on the ventilator. so funny. after that we walked around. but in the end, we four splitted into two. me and si min went to get her comic and then to marks and spencer to buy chocolate while sy and sharon stayed at the basement deciding which wallet is best. then after a while, we met up. but i and si min wanted to go home, so we went out of the shopping centre. so si min the richo took a taxi home and i waited for bus 7. wow..luckily i caught that bus 7, if not..i'll be home late. ok..i failed my grade 7. like i put in my best. and i failed by a bit. i was like shivering when i was playing..then maybe i screwed that very first piece..that's why i failed like that. and the second piece i also screwed the back part, because i was too scared also. haiz..and i've made up my mind to work harder for my dream college. ok. start from this year. and accomplish something by next year(:

Thursday, October 12, 2006 { 7:48 AM }

today was me very last exam-o level music. hahaas. the four unseen extracts were okay to me..but the rest were like upside down. i fear i might fail. but some of it was right! my senses..thank god man. if i ever pass, i'll thank god and sing him loads and loads of praises..but doesnt mean if i dont pass i wont do that. heheex. after that me and bi suppose to meet two different groups of people. i'm suppose to meet simin, yuqing, sy and ciyi to watch some movie and walk walk, whereas bi met mao and cel in cine's kbox. and something bad just happened..and the whole outing almost went upside down..but ok course..someone has to save the day right? so the saviour of the day was..everybody. heheex. it's stupid i know. then that's not called a saviour(: ok..when we reached there, we met yuqing at vivo. then we went to the cinema to get the tickets. but we were looking and looking at that screen, but could not find a nice show, so in the end, we decided to watch world trade centre because it has the most convinent timings..after buying the tickets, we went over to harbourfront to see if there's any food. sy wanted to eat kfc and we all agreed, but there wasnt any kfc there. so lousy. hahaas..we almost went to pasta mania, but it was lunch time, so there were many people. in the end we had to make our way back there because the movie was starting. we only bought popcorn. when the movie was starting, there was a bunch of girls who came in. they made their grand appearance by making hell lot of noise. everyone in the theatre shot glances of dismay, yet they didnt get the que. so in the end, someone had to scold them vulgarities..then they shut up. actually they didnt really shut up. but they were quiter. during the whole movie, they were making a lot of noise..laughing at parts in which they are not suppose to laugh. it's suppose to be sad..mind you. i was like..on the verge of tears.."no..dont give up!" then they laughed. i was like..almost bursting..and ciyi was like shouting for them to keep quiet. i guess this type of solemn movies are not for them afterall. they should go for movies like just my luck or scary movie. i tell you..this moive is great. it's about two people stuck in some debris, then how they managed to survive by helping each other. it showed us the good nature of humanity. in the end, they managed to reunite with their family! yay~ "the only reason that kept me living..is..you" this was what one of the two survivor, john said to his wife. everyone..go watch this movie! after the movie, we went to meet bi they all. then we walk around that giraffe toy store called what i forgot..=P met some chung chenger there..that place had limited stores..i wanted to shop for pencil cases, but in the end, couldnt manage to get one..because the stores there are all clothes. simin had to go home early to watch gods of honour so she left at about 4.30. i walked on a while with yuqing and sy. after eating hagen-daze, the three of us made our ways to the mrt station. i went to toa payoh with yuqing and took bus 31 home. today is such a fun day out! but..it made my heart so guilty..haiz. a contadiction.

Tuesday, October 10, 2006 { 7:59 AM }

one down, two more to go. while others only have one more paper to study for, i've got two. like..wth. sometimes i wonder why i'm studying music at all. why? is there a reason? ok..for appreciation purposes? or what? improve our wen2 hua4 xiu1 yang3? hahaas. what a joke. i feel like a naughty girl right now. it's like you know that something is wrong, yet you want to do it. it's scary..but it's not as though i want to do it. you forced me. ok..i'm pushing all these faults to people who is not at fault at all. you are kept in the dark..it's wrong to do this to you. i know, yet i'm doing it. what a double sinner i am. there are no darker sins than doing something that you know you cannot do. here, i wish to say a big big sorry..it's not nice to lie you know? it's hurts me a lot..a lot..the pain is killing me. i'm sorry..so sorry..SORRY! although i know you'll never get to see this page after all..but i just want to say that i'm sorry:] forgive me..but i hope you'll never know about all these..ok. i'm a villain. i know, and i'm proud of it. as said by don john, but hey! i'm not proud of it ok? i'm sad..understand?? hahaas..i'm mad le lar..tml's e maths! must get an a..if not i'll knock myself onto the wall..the radian mode incident almost made me do that..on the verge like. hello! this thing is caused by my carelessness..i ought to pay back by doing my remaining papers well..may everyone get a A for their e maths(: good luck peeps!

Sunday, October 08, 2006 { 11:11 PM }

ok..we're only like three papers away from freedom. but my nightmare is starting..the day we check our papers, is the say my nightmare begin. if the results are up the standard, then it's n0t a nightmare..but most likely they'll turn out like some nightmare i hate..guess what paper we had today? physics and lit! guessed it, anyone? and when i talk about physics, i'll go all crazy about that radian mode thingy all over again..ok..this was what happened. i used my calculator to like do my maths homework yesterday and i forgot to change it back from radian mode to degree mode. ok..and i went for physics exam. i did that light question happily and in the end, after the exam, bi ran told me her answer and i was like.."what?!" mine was like 0. something..then she was like,"how is it possible?!" then she suggested that my calculator was in radian mode..and of course..she was right. like wth right? my four marks..i hope they give me the method marks like mid year..and the method marks was like..the full mark for the question? i want all my four marks! argh! but then the mcq was oki dokie(: heheex..then lit was next. the whole hall was like so quiet..only left our class and BN..so cold too..i want good results! tomorrow is chinese..good luck to everyone who's taking any paper tomorrow..[:

Sunday, October 01, 2006 { 8:15 AM }

i'm mugging ss! >.< and it's like until now..i have only cover ONE chapter! one only. i still remembered in mid year, we down there guess guess the chapters..but now..we are no longer sure. there's like too much too guess..actually there isnt much to guess that's why we are worried that those old ones will come out again! omg! i'm scared!!!!! hahaas..and placebo cure today last episode! i love wan jiahe(: he was like so cute!!! when he's jealous, he dont question his girlfriend about her behaviour, but splashes water at himself..so man! gentlemanly..haiz..and he vv cute. i dont know how to say..but he's just too cute to be described[: heheex..okok..i'm nuts le..today spent like the whole day doing maths..my mind going to die le..but nevermind! it'll do me good wont it? heheex..tataz. wish me good luck for exams! and guess what? our school is having holidays tomorrow, but i still have to go back to school..sad life i lead right? because of what? because of o level music. i feel like dropping it anyways..but i dont think mom will allow..haiz..nevermind..anyways..if i fail, then mr loh will make me drop de. but i really wanna pass!!!!